ab0ut my life

Afraid of somthing..

2012-02-08T10:56:00.001-08:00

Hi kini aku kembali blogging!! Haha.. Ok pape je.. Hmm.. Da masuk sbulan lebih ku tak uzur ( Jeng.. Jeng.. Jeng.. ) aku takot je.. Aku m*******g.. Mati ar cam ni.. Shit main tahu tak takot.. Haiz.. Ape nak buat ar.. Aku tak tahu sak.. Haiya.. Pikiran2.. Da try byk cara nanas je lum.. Hahaha.. Trying soon.. Myb sok kot.. K lah tu je ku nak bilang bye.. Hahaha.. Biol..

2012-02-04T13:05:00.001-08:00

Ok we did figth again.. But this time i really say out every single thing.. I dont wanna say it but i did.. All this while i just keep it to ma self cos it were sound sooo not rite.. (BGT-Budak Gigit Taya) But then tats the only thing tat we hv (Car).. To help us spend more time.. haiz..

Hmm...

2012-02-04T07:17:00.001-08:00

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku
Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku
Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung
Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku
Hanya mampu terserah
Moga cahaya di penanti
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

About Muhd fauzi bin abdul sukor and "bestie"..

2012-02-03T13:50:00.001-08:00

Hey..
I really feel bad bout him n his bestie tat always run from a prblm.. Why cant he realise tat poji help him alot but not by money.. Hmm.. Poji da byk mengalah.. Tapi die tetap mcm sial.. Aku kesian ngan poji die mcm tak tahu sape die pilih.. Antare ku tau pun "bestie" die tu.. Be "bestie" die tu sbenar nye tak leh accpt knape poji side kan aku.. Hmm FYI poji tak side kan sape2 pun kau tu yg tripping2 lah kan.. Tak leh accpt tapi nak aku ngan poji.. Bodoh.. Lagi kau sakit ati kan.. Lain kali jgn nak pandai2 org gado end up tripping2..

Poji "bestie" gf aka "bestie" ku..
Haizz.. Die pulak.. Mcm paham kate je nak ku jadi model die lah tu lah ni lah.. Tapi satu abuk pun tak de.. Senyap je.. Kate2 boleh lah cube buat.. Hmm.. Ni cume nak sedapnkan ati je kan.. Lah.. Kan kasi ku semangat hmm.. But then thankq lah kan baru2 je sedap lame2 rase mcm tak leh caye.. Cos nothing happen.. Tak nak ckp je tak nak aku tahu lah aku ni sape bukan nye lawa.. serupe model pun tidak.. Aku da bise lah kan.. Kene kutuk.. Aku rase ape kakak ku ckp mmg btol kot pasal kakak maya bilang kakak ku pasal aku.. Yg da kudut tak lawa etc etc etc..

Poji..
Am sorry lau i byk sgt wat salah ke rase tak tahu mane yg nak u pilih.. Am ok if i let u go w "bestie".. Kwn "11 tahu" kan lagi penting dari i.. Pasal i da cukup rase trsekse bile stiap kali kite gado.. 1 day i will gone go far away from u.. N tat point of time i'll make sure u'll nvr fine me again.. Just to make u live if ur frends.. Am sorry..

Abby bday..

2012-02-03T06:36:00.001-08:00

Its abby bday.. Out w poji, me, mas, bob, wanny, wan and 2 iddiot.. I donno y i still like not happy w wat they did to me n poji.. Make us fight.. Haizz tak tahu lah kan.. Ati lum puas....... Pandang poji nye pasal lau tak takde mase nak g dok ngan dorg.. Wat ku geram je.. Bodoh.. Am just not happy.. Tak de mood.. Seh.. Its just me.. Donno y..

1:29am
Haizz.. Wat a day man.. Wanna spendtime w poji but then cannot.. Mcm sial.. Tadi pat tamp taknak balik.. Now!! Cnnt spend time w poji.. Haiz.. Mangkok sak.. Hmm...haiyo..

Flower...

2012-01-29T15:37:00.001-08:00

Out w bf family.. To santosa when to see the flower in santosa.. So beautyful.. Love it.. I had a great day.. ;).. Thank q ucuk, aby, amy and tatak.. Hehe..

Something happen..

2012-01-27T14:12:00.001-08:00

When i was under the blk w ma bf.. There this NS boy was being gangster.. Cari pasal lah konon.. He think tat he big enuf to hang2 org pat bwk.. N i know ma bf can do anything at all.. Kental.. But am ok w it he trying his best to make us a part or stop fight.. But then am use to it.. Hahaha... Seriously tat NS boy very the budak2.. Can c by his way.. Of hang2 org... Kental then ma bf.. Ishk da kening gf die da mcm minah rep.. Haha.. N me bf we can talk n laugh the whole day bout it.. Hahaha... K nite wanna go to sleep..

Something happen..

2012-01-27T13:57:00.001-08:00

Dont be borther..

2012-01-27T08:28:00.001-08:00

Hmm.. Am being ma self being who i am.. I dont wanna cara wat ppl wanna say about.. I dnt care any more.. I know no one will understand bout me.. Am to tired of every thing.. And now i just let it b although am hurt i will stil shut ma mouth.. Why is hard to say am sorry while am esy to say it.. How i wish to go back so will nvr know them it hard for me to face although is not me who start it.. But try to cover all the shit they make.. I hate for doing this to me.. Hate it so much.. Haizz...

Donno what is going on with me..

2012-01-26T16:59:00.001-08:00

Cry.. Cry.. Cry.. Cant stop crying.. What the hell is going on with me...!!! Cry.. Cry.. Cry.. N now feel hungry..

To ma dear fauzi..

2012-01-26T16:08:00.001-08:00

Not bcos am not happy w u it just not happy w ma life.. Wat i been thro.. I'll b happy to c u happy.. I want u to b w me.. 4ever.. But am sorry.. To hurt u loving u who u are.. Love u.. Gonna miss u n hope u found someone new...

Cant Stop Crying...

2012-01-26T15:02:00.001-08:00

Hmm.. I just cnt stop crying.. Making me think back the big fight ma bestie were saying tat i dont even care to thunk bout other but then she donno anything.. I nvr say i single word to her bout wat mum say bout her cos i know it will hurt her.. N alot of thing tat i keep inside me.. I did figth w mum n bf bcos of her did she know bout tat she donno.. I did pay for her when mum keep on askin me bout the money.. I never say a single word cos i dont want think bad n dnt want mum to think her bad too.. And naz.. If i dnt think bout his feeling i nvr keep things bout girl2 his ex.. N i nvr let he know bestie either.. Haizz... And alot of thing.. Tat i wanna say but am tired of everything.. Now i just b wat they want me to be although am not happy.. If i do this they will say tat i dont care bout other feeling.. :'(...

How i know ma bf..

2012-01-26T14:00:00.001-08:00

Bfore i know bf i got to know ma ex lover mhd danial.. Then i got to know danial sister then from there got to know ma bf on 22 Jan 2011.. (Cut It short).. Ok here it gose aftr tat ma bf got a best frend called nazrul then blah blah blah.. Then me n bf match make him n ma bestie and they are together now.. So.. Got one of the time 4 (ma, bf, naz and lily) of us we had a big fight it start by i telling them them wat happen last nite and i know if i tell them they will laugh out of it but then no.. Naz he change alot n he take it seriously.. N he put the blam on me n ma bf too.. I there it gose the fight naz make me get fuck by ma bf n ma bestie.. Then naz did it again.. Today but this time w ma bf.. Just bcos i wanna make ma bf happy i did this i msg naz..

Me: Hi nazrul amree btw he need u more then me.. Matair leh cari kwn baik susah nak cari.. So tak ya nak g tarik2 die k.. We already end it bcos of things happen.. So ya thank you btw.. Just keep on cntting him.. Thank..

Naz: Kalo ko anggap aku sebagai one of your friend. Ko dgr ckp aku for one last time. Sebelom aku tinggalkan korg 2 utk selamanye,aku nak korg 2 bermesra. Post aku pat fb takde kene mengene pasal kau atau sesiapepon. Ade faham? Maafkan aku jikalau aku buat kau tersinggung. Itu bukan niat aku. Aku gan lily takde ape2 hal gan ko atau fauzi. We wish u guys to stay happy. Aku nak u guys sebelom lily fly off to still be together. Untok aku korg berdua lupekan saje lah untok selamenye. Aku tak seperti Nazrul yg ko ingat dahulu. Pendiam. Aku dah berubah. Mmg aku tak suke prangai aku skrg. Tapi ape yang aku boleh buat lagi? Korg yg suro aku mengubah sikap. Tolong jangan lupe jasad aku. Terima kasih buat kali terakhir dari kawanmu Nazrul Amri Zulkeflee ikhlas dari hati.

Me: Wait?? Pasal fb..?? Hello kau yg trase bkn aku fb pasal post aku.. Ma post is just saje2 je.. Da everything is end btwn me n him.. Things happen is too much.. Thankq to b a frend..

Naz: Dn tell me why the sudden reaction? Forget it la jojie. Aku taknak gadoh2 dan aku tak mahu bermusoh. Do whatever u wish. I am not scolding u or whatever. But i hope u guys still be together. For my sake pls i beg u. I'll juz leave you ppl alone forever. Fauzi hati dier baik. He'll do whatever it takes to make you happy. I am really2 sorry if i hurt you. I dont wish for my friends to get hurt. Thank you for showing me the right path after wat had happened to me before. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for letting me know your bestie which i shall cherish till now and forever. Pls accept my apology before i move on with my own life...

Me: U really want him to b happy rite only 1 thing nazrul dont ever leave him.. He needs u more then me.. Da tak gune naz kau nak beg2 aku lagi semue nye da end.. N yes in front of ur eyes his a gd guy tat try to make me happy but do u know wat happen behind it no naz.. Dont b selfish naz.. His still need u.. Kau nak tgk kwn baik kau be alone now.. Kau nak tgk kwn kau baik kau cry bcos of u.. Kau nak tgk kau got no where to go w/o u.. Lau kau nak tgk die mcm tu just stay to wat u plan.. K..

Naz: Thats where you are wrong. Aku rela korbankan ape2 demi kebahagiaan kwan2 ku. You are being selfish. Without you he suffers. HE NEEDS YOU MORE dn i do. You are someone much more special to him dn me. You are the one closer to his heart. Pls jojie. Demi aku ar. Stay with him. Lupekan semua yang telah berlaku. Lupekan sahaje aku setelah korg berdua bersame kembali. Tolong lah jojie. One final favour from you. I'll beg on my knees if you want me to. As a friend i want you to be with someone who appreciates you alot. Its what i and lily wanted. One last favour pls.

Me: No i will nvr if u leave him.. He cry n saying tat u leave him.. K.. Fair...

Naz: Kau janji aku. Kau tak akan tinggalkan dier walaupon ape2 berlaku. You will show him love and care through thick snd thin. I promise you he will do the same. Hal ini dari skrg aku gan kau akan kite lupekan segalenye? Boleh? No more of this nonsense pls...

Me: Ok.. Krane die k wat mcm ni.. Ku akan janji lau kau janji lau kau janji yg kau will nvr ever leave him..? And i will did this just bcos of him .. Just bcos of him.. :)

Naz: Dn let bygones be bygones. Delete seme bende yang ade pat fb. Never leave his side no matter what happens. Promise me.

To ma bf fauzi sukor
If u think tat his a bestie he will nvr make a prmise..

Am back

2012-01-26T12:49:00.000-08:00

Dear diary.. Am back It been long time.. Hmm now wanna talk bout ma life.. Ma life is not ezy i have bf now his name muhd fauzi his age 24 this year.. Ok this how the story gose..

Ab0uT mE aNd My BeStIe

2010-01-12T12:27:00.000-08:00

I have a bestie.. We being together for bout 9yrs.. Alot thing happen btwn us.. We figth alot of time.. Hmm gado sal sesame sendiri pon ade pasal laki pon ade.. Bayak ar am happy wif her.. Tapi now things change.. Pasal satu pmpn yg nak act jadi jantan, name die zul he change her life.. N bestie ku da tak rapat ngan aku lagi hahk.. Aku sedih.. Mane kate2 bestie ku pegi.. Abe skrg kite tak rapat pasal si zul sial tu lah.. Aku rindu ngan bestie ku.. Ku tgu bestie ku bilang aku yg die da tak ngan si babi tu lagi baru hidup ku happy ngan bestie aku.. Aku benci ngan si zul.. Aku betol2 benci ngan die.. Hmm.. :'(..

0n ThE dAy 0f Ma BdAy!

2009-11-11T00:03:00.000-08:00

From: Lily Bestie
Time: 12 Am
Actualie aku lpak jus to wish u first.. Haha.. ingt la even i got lots of boifwend or galfwend u ttap ma number 1 bestie..aku always syg ko as ma sista.. Even aku gadoh ke ngumpat ke.. Kacau2 ke irritatin ke ku ttap syg ko as ma bestie.. N ku tk malu utnk blng irng ko bestie aku even orng ader tawu prangai dulu ko sial ke ape k.. Lup u gal.. I appreaciate ma 9yrs friendship wid u!! niwae again hapie 20th birthdae.!!

From: Abg Mahadhir
Time: 12:01 Am
Kepada Adeq ku jepun yang tersayang dan bernamaTan Nur Hayati*Abg Mud di sini ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Jadi Adik!!!Semoga Panjang Umur Murah Rezeki,dan jugak semoga wish adk terkabul insya'ALLAH:)*amin

2009-11-11T00:02:00.000-08:00

From: Wawa
Time: 12:03
Hello booboo!! Wahh! At last u've reach 20yrs old babe. Happy 20th Birthday Titigurl. :)May god bless you always and yea, enjoy your birthday okay gurl. Hope to know you better gurl. Toodles! ;)

From: Taka_Shah Golf
Time: 12:05
HaPpY 2oTh BiRtHdAy, YaTi! SeMoGa HaYaTmU pEnUh DeNgAn KeMaNiSaN hIdUp, daN lEbIh BeRmAkNa LaGi!:-)

2009-11-11T00:01:00.000-08:00

From: Taka_Anne
Time: 12:36 Am
Gurl,Hapi Bdae 2 Ü!May all ur dreamz n wishes come true.Enjy ya.LuV Ü!:)Anne@Pornstar.

From: Sayang Fuchun
Time: 12:58 Am
Titi hapi 20th bufday ..sm0ga panjang umur murakn rezeki ..t.c my fwen

2009-11-11T00:00:00.000-08:00

From: Yati
Time: 01:36 Pm
Hapy bday gerl

From: Khalid 27
Time: 02:12 Am
Orite, tk cre n btw happy 20th bday. May u been bless with gd fortune n health. N gd luck in ur future endeavour. Cya soon!